Confusion…

I am confused.  I am still trying to figure out the direction I want to go.  I want the end of this to be the start (actually, continuation) of something wonderful.  The unfulfilled feeling I felt before is still there, but not to the degree it was.  I feel like I am moving in the right direction.  I now know I have an identity outside of mom and wife.  This was quite a realization for both my family and I.  As I have awakened to this, there have been some growing pains as well.  But all have realized this change is for the better.  Back to being confused, I guess it just seems odd that I am looking for these answers at close to 40.  I know what I do have that I did not have before and that is confidence.  I am confident that after some soul searching I will eventually realize what will truly make me happy.  I think this statement applies to all areas of my life, not just outside the home.  My happiness is knowing I am doing the right thing for everyone, including me.  This I am not confused about.